This beautiful autumn outside and so cold inside ...

Autumn is the most mysterious season. She sneaks up quietly and unnoticed. And every time when we fall under the leaf fall, it is as if we plunge into childhood, and rejoice like a child and throw up these leaves again and again. But what happens when we get home?
Nothing Nothing at all .... Behind the closed door is empty and cold. And I so much want to love, to be necessary for someone, to give my care to my own and beloved person. And go out to just fool around in these leaves, laugh out loud, take funny photos and just be happy.
These are not supernatural dreams, but sometimes it seems unreal in our time.